Do you think I should trust her?

I found amazement in myself these past hours.

I found myself lost in the darkness seeking the person I once knew.

The person who could only say "Eff You". 

The one who could walk away and just not give a shit.

 I missed her most of all yesterday as a strange realization and fear struck home and shook the naive innocent me into something sad. 

I didn't want fear, I didn't want stress.

I didn't want love.

I'm amazed, simply because I made it through. 

That I came out victorious and the myself I thought I wanted to run hand in hand with,

she is now a part of me that I know no matter how hard I try to lock her away,

she is always a part of me and I need her. 

I need her to keep me...

ME!

I can keep on loving!

 She says it is OK!

(photo taken here)